Have a peaceful Christmas!

Got the holidays started, my husband back home and family gathered around. Let there be Christmas!

Walking in the winter slumberland - only in my dreams

My piece of land stays still. It's winter, I'm in the city. The bills for clearing the forest and buying the marshland came. I can't continue anything on the site. It's too cold and there's not a single hut for a shelter. Though, I wouldn't have energy. The work and other things in the city are enough.

I felt the negative energy roll over and I tried to fight against it. Then, my husband got ill. After a few sudden severe painful days he was diagnosed a spinal disc herniation. Against all odds, he was not only diagnosed that, but also a huge abdominal aortic aneurysm which is a very dangerous condition caused by an enlarged aorta. In fact, when we last went to my land to pick the cranberries, I picked them on my own, for we had just got to know he should be careful and would be operated soon. The danger of a ruptured aorta was immediate, and my husband was hospitalised for an operation at the end of the following week. This made us all in the family kind of hover in the atmosphere of life and death. We didn't know what the result would be, but we also knew that without the spinal disc herniation the severe condition would have stayed hidden and the result would have most propably been his death. However, the peace and trust deep in us all was as tangible as the life we pursued during the few days of uncertainty. All went in the best way. The operation the surgeons did was an endovascular repair, which is far more gentle to the patient than an open repair. This means my husband came home the day after the operation and a few weeks later he was able to start with the rehabilitation excercises for the hernia. We have been so grateful, but "we had to kneel down to see closer!"

Fighting back the dullness of life we started to renovate our bedroom as soon as my husband was able to move more without pain. I'm overjoyed we did! We changed the floor material, painted all other walls except for one, which got a glamorous wall paper on it. I also finally got use of the glittery ceiling light I had bought some years ago. The entire room changed. It looks so gorgeous now!

It's soon Christmas again. A bit of light into darkness, luckily. My land slumbers like it has done for many years and many winters. My husband decided to go on holiday and is now basking in the warm sun. I make me a coffee and eat vanilla ice cream with cinnamon spiced cranberry jam and try to focus on the working day tomorrow!